Hey y'all, it's been a while.
breakfast: leftover vegetable jamabalaya from Border Cafe
lunch: pita chips
dinner?: orange juice / Bolthouse Farms C-Boost smoothie / zucchini bread
I just read this on a group for People to People International, an organization that I'm a member of that hosts the Global Youth Forum every year that I go to. I just found it really interesting because it's about the whole Palestinian-Israeli conflict that I've heard things about from the Israeli side for the most part, and this was the first time I really heard a Palestinian talk about it.
I am Ahmad from jinen, palistine.
I am 16 years old, I hope you accept me as a new friend for you in this yahoo groub that covers us under friendship shadow to impalnts peace in our hearts
which havent seen it since been born, we all love peace and want to live in it but here in palistine there is no peace,there is blood,corpses, destroeing buildings,we in palistine tried and still trieing to change this bad situoation, in some cites you can see a luxury life like rammalah for exampale which
considered the political capital of our palistinian goverment, so that i hope you all to understand our palistinaian cause correctlry and to help us to
regaining our missed holy homeland wich we live in but we cant move any where without a permition from the Israelian govermant which
occupied palistine and robbed the liberty from us , i must stop writeing now becouse i wrote alot,
thank you all
with all my love"
Somebody replied to it as well basically concurring with his message.
I guess I just found it interesting because even though it's not written very well, it gives an interesting insight of a kid who has grown up with the conflict.
I feel like Summer's practically over, but there are a bunch of things I still want to do:
1. Eat less crap.
2. Exercise frequently.
3. Read lots of books (I made a list).
4. Go to a show or two.
5. Sit-ups. No more belly fat.
6. Spend time with Sam.
7. Spend time with friends.
9. Find something outdoors-y to do around me.
Basically I want to read more and lose weight and #8 is a joke. Maybe. I'm coming home on Friday, so I'm missing the party the counsellors are having in a random cabin Friday night. I'll be at a very different kind of party that night at Barnes & Noble's though.
I'm at a camp in Pennsylvania at a boarding school called Mercersburg Academy that's basically in the middle of nowhere. I'm a volunteer junior counsellor, so basically it means that I get to clean up after kids for no money along with people getting paid for the same work.
It's alright, I haven't been able to do any activities yet, but I've been promised that I will, and I hope that will make it more fun. I get to go to Hershey Park one day, so that should be sort of exciting. I really miss everyone in Florida though. I have no idea how I'll be able to go to college, I guess I'll just have to suck it up and make new friends. I also dislike communal bathrooms and timed showers, but not enough that it's a hate or anything.
I'm also sad that I'm missing seeing Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix tonight, but I'll be back in time to wait in line to get the book, for the first time in my life, at midnight.
My dad's moving to Chicago tomorrow. He's calling it a commute. He's going to come home every couple of weekends or so, but he'll be working there most of the time. Thank you crappy Floridian housing industry for this.
It's weird to think that he'll be gone most of the time. I guess it won't be that different because he already works a lot, but it's sad for him to go. I have a pretty good relationship with my dad, I think, and I'm really grateful for that, especially since the relationship with my mom isn't so good.
I'm going to miss watching random movies with him until late. I'm going to miss his full blown dissertations about golfing that nobody wants to hear. I'm going to miss his complaints that everything hurts. I'm going to miss going outside and seeing him hide his cigar from me as its smoke climbs up to the sky. I'm going to miss his silly disposition after a few drinks. I'm going to miss his music in the car. I'm going to miss his gullibility to amazing informercial products. I'm going to miss his murmurs to himself as he sorts through papers. I'm going to miss him saying, "these are so disgusting" as he downs a bag of chips. I'm going to miss his shy standoffish disposition around strangers and his outgoing self when surrounded by friends. I'm going to miss his requests to "read this for me" as he squints and holds a piece of paper arms length from his eyes. I'm going to miss our shared giggles as my mom went psycho about something stupid.
I can't concentrate on anything. i don't want to concentrate on anything. I have an oral presentation to do for Theory of Knowledge that's due tomorrow, and I haven't even figured out waht I want to do it on. Right now I think it's going to be on weight loss or re-writing history, but gun control is still in the back of my head. I don't know.
I can't believe my parents did what they did when they did. I have so much coming up, this is the most stressful time of my life, and they have to dump this all on me, and my boyfriend. All I feel like doing is curling up in a ball and dying. I know when I get to school on monday I'll be smiling though. It's my nature, but when I'm at home all I can do is cry. I've only gone out for prom, and I wasted all of yesterday doing nothing, and today is taking the same route. My mom asked if I wanted to talk to my psychologist today, and I said no. What the hell am I suppsoed to tell him? He's my "learning coach" not a family counsellor.
I wish I had a car. I would just go to the library, or Barnes & Noble's and do my work. Maybe I could concentrate better there.
I'm going to church in 2 hours and I'm going to Lifeteen after. I've never been. I'm thinking I'm going to hate it, and I know I will if I think that way. I just have stuff I need to get done, that's not going to get done, and I'll blame it on that.
Today was the most uncomfortable, weird, ridiculous day of my life.
I didn't even know if I should write a post about it because I don't want to talk about it, but I feel like I need to get my feelings out or something.
I hate to say it, but what happened today was good in a way too, but I still didn't like it. My eyes are burning. I cried a lot today too. However, I feel pretty complete about it now, with the exception of my intentional imprecise diction.
I so hate consequences.
I'm not going to have internet in my room anymore. The consequence does not fit.
If none of this made sense to you, good.